Secret Church, heavy heart

Still thinking about Secret Church last night, I can't wait for the new earth. It's going to be amazing. I ache for the world to end soon so noone has to know pain and suffering anymore. My heart is so burdened when I see people are walking through the death of a loved one, esp a child and I pray oh Jesus return soon! But we can have hope, because He will! So let's hurry up and complete His mission so this can happen. We have to share....and I'm so guilty for not. I pray for boldness. Don't get wrapped up in the emotional fluff of Easter, truly follow Him, not just with your words or a Christian label. You can not share about Him and say you are a follower and continually walk in sin. It's impossible. You have either surrendered your life to Him or you haven't. You either live each day for Him and His glory or you live for yourself. There has to be a sense of urgency. I pray this in my own life. Maybe this sounds super Christian or very religious, but those should not even be terms....there are followers of Christ who are obviously and loudly seperate from this world and those who are of the world. No in betweens.... Scary but very real if you consider youself in that category. sorry long, but my heart is heavy. Thankful for what Easter represents and that we are even allowed to be in the presence of God one day. Every knee shall bow and every tounge will confess. Woo hoooo!, are you pumped? Ready to show your fruit? Or will you just say....I believed in you and accepted you in my heart but still enjoyed the pleasures of this world, didn't share your story with anyone....that's just not my thing, but I was very involved in my church and sang the right songs, sat on the same pew for twenty years and prayed when I needed something as I was going sleep? Do you think that will suffice? Or do you think that runs the risk of God saying.....depart from me, I never knew you. You may have called on my name, but you lived for yourself, you didn't flee from sin, you didn't  intimately KNOW me, show me your fruit and your evidence of true repentance, true surrender and utmost obedience. Don't live a comfortable Christian (world view of Christian) life going about the motions. Stop coasting,flee from sin, run to share and delight in knowing Him more and more each step of the way.

This is not just a prayer for others but for myself. I want more friends that live this way. I think I know of 2. Lord help this number grow. I don't want to be surrounded by the watered down version of Christians anymore. I want boldness for myself and others.

Let us wake up and rise up.

Helloooo Blog World- anyone home?

So, I've taken a break.....obviously.  I'm not sure if I'm ready to come back in full force yet, but I have an itch to post today.  Perhaps I will do a quick update and then at some point go back and post October till now.  Eek.

Gabe is almost 4!  Holy Moly.  I am in the process of planning his party.  He wanted outerspace theme, then transformers, then power rangers and now he wants Star Wars.  Has he seen the movie Star Wars?  Nooooo.  He doesn't know anything about it.  So we are having a crash course this month, so he will know something about his bday party theme.  (and I will too)  I've been pinning and have had fun finding cute ideas for the party- I'm even thinking of doing my hair like Princess Leia, but that may be a little much. :)

My pin board here: Gabe's Bday Party Ideas 


I started a new job at the end of December.  It's been such a blessing.  I really feel like I add value here and think there is room for growth.  I am the Operations Supervisor for Health Partners America.  When people ask what I do, instead of giving a long complex explanation I say, "We are basically a way to survive ObamaCare"  You should see liberals' reaction to that.  Basically we provide, tools, training and resources for Insurance Agents.  It's a lot more complex, check out the website here.  It's a start up company, which is fun and challenging at times.  I really think it's going to do well and I'm excited I get to be part of it.  I love the personalities of everyone here, I think we are quite a fun and witty group :)


Gabe broke out in a rash this past week/weekend.  I was very worried about him, but I guess it looked worse than it was.  I hated not being able to take him anywhere.  Other parents would most likely give me the evil eye for my infected child.  We did however venture out to Cracker Barrell and the outlets for some shopping.  He had to miss his best friend's birthday party :(.  It broke my heart to tell him he couldn't go.  He had been looking forward to it for so long.  The pic below doesn't do it justice, it was way worse the morning after this and covered his face :(

My small group is doing the Experiencing God study.  I've heard great things about it.  We are three weeks in, it is such a different perspective from what I was raised on.  Good stuff.

Secret Church is this Friday.  I'm pumped.  The topic this time is, Heaven, Hell and the End of the World.  I think it's going to be great.  I got my comfy clothes and snacks ready for my 6pm to 12am crash course.  (Last year it went till past 1am).

My best friend is engaged!!!  I can't wait to see her.  We have a mini beach trip planned in a few weeks.  We are meeting in St. Augustine (where she wants to get married) so it will be fun to check out some venues, etc.  I am so happy for her!

I'm on a health kick right now- it probably will not last for long, but trying to eat clean and I am working out most mornings at 7:15am- Who am I right?  I got some new black kicks and for some reason they make me feel like much more of an athlete than I am.

hmm, have I covered everything?  Probably not.  Oh, I recently purchased some Ikea bookshelves, so it's been fun shopping for decor items to fill.  (and the $$ adds up)  I am also getting a new coffee table soon.  A guy is making it and the money go towards his mission trip, which I love that I have the opportunity to help support.  I am excited to see how the table turns out.  Other projects I want to accomplish, a photo wall and something above my couch. Those will probably be later in the year. Once I get my coffee table I will do a post on all things decor.